Friday, January 05, 2007

Happy New Year!!!

HAPPY 2007 everyone!

i realised that i have neglected this website...!!! maybe cuz i was a little dejected with the lack of views and response.... thus wanting to blog on my xanga more where friends can reach out to me easier....

2006 has been a wonderful year.... the most significant thing that has happened to me is none other than -

the TJC campus concert!

it was the first time i actually supervised a concert from head to toe.... together with a great company of ppl from mainworks and temasek jc.... i was having my internship then so have to juggle between the 2.... thankfully my boss ryan was v understanding and gave me leaves so i cld make it for the full dress and final rehearsals... it is also the first time i actually approach (and bargain) with a shop for sponsorship... tks ranking sports! i wonder when will we hv a time to perform agn... i miss singing chinese songs! hahaha...

the next most significant thing would be -

being casted for Excess Baggage The Musical!!!

http://www.excessbaggage-themusical.com/

go visit the site!! it is really v pretty and creative!! wat a talented webmaster gangwei!

in fact i think i am spending more time going for rehearsals than my lectures and homework combined (also becuz i have a slacker term 1 with only 3 modules) the scale of this musical is unprecedented by any other overseas sporean production.... just look at the no. of sponsors... i am really amazed with the admin team.... it is also the first time i guess any sporean group is putting up a musical for charity in london.... so honoured to be involved.... it is also the first time i am involved in a big theatre production solely for charity.... feels so much more meaningful..... and as a result ppl in the team are much more giving... there will almost always be (sponsored) food for any rehearsal.... unprecedented!

meanwhile.... i have lots to practise in preparation for the big day.... have also been wondering about the way i sing the songs... how can i sound better? am i sounding too forced? am i emoting correctly? just don't wanna let anyone down.... the efforts put together have been tremendous... yes there will be a lot of pressure... there will be many criticisms along the way hoping to generate a better end product.... many a times it will seem that giving ur best isn't gd enuff......

a few friends have told me in private that my demeanour seems to exhibit a lack of confidence... i guess that is quite true.... although yes i have been involved in many productions.... i have lived thru many disappointments... i am afraid of failure... maybe tts why i m afraid to try sometimes.... bcuz rejection can kill... and destruct my self esteem.... rip me apart.... leave me days to wonder whether was i ever gd enuff in the first place.... seems like a price to pay to love the stage..... shd i climb higher or shd i settle for less? will i risk falling greater?

will i rise to the occasion?